May 20th, 1936
I almost had my trip with Edward set, when something happened that could change our plans.
Rosalie and I went for a walk through the country side just taking in the sparseness of homes through this farmland. There would be a house, and the next one would be at least 5 miles away. It was an overcast sky, so we would be able to walk easily during the day. We fit in on overcasts days, with the humans. We still look different but at least we don't sparkle.
I still think of the day Rosalie showed me in the sun what happens, and why we cannot come into contact with humans,was so interesting. Both of our skin looked as if we were totally engulfed in diamonds. I didn't know exactly what I looked like without a mirror, but I can tell you that my Rosalie was so beyond words that I just blabbered about with nothing making any sense. She smiled that smile, and laughed at my actions.
So Rosalie and I were taking a walk just for something to do, as we never sleep, when all of a sudden I smelled a smell that knocked me off my feet. Rosalie asked me "Emmett what 's wrong", and I told her "I smell sweet honeysuckle and the bouquet of sweet sherry" something so amazing and asked her "Do you smell that?"
"You mean the human" she asked? I answered "Human? What human? There is no human here! It is a smell that calls out to you and invites you to partake of the wine". I started to run. I left Rosalie there on the road, looking shocked and unprepared for this moment.
I saw in my prolific vision Rosalie running after me. I knew she wouldn't catch me, and if she did, she didn't have the strength to stop me. Across the field were two humans working the land. I went for the one who's smell called to me. I took my time as it was like drinking a fine wine, and needed to be savored. The other human ran. As Rosalie ran up to try to stop me, I turned at her and growled in a crouch position. She was not going to take my meal away from me, nor did I want to share this particular wine with her.
"Calm down Emmett," she whispered, "I have no intention of stopping you, but I will not leave you in this state." Then she backed away and sat on the ground until I was done. I hate to admit this to anyone but I enjoyed the humans blood so much. It was the difference between ground beef and steak. Now I understand what Edward says about us being vegetarians. It was the most fulfilling and satisfying than any animal I have killed and drank from. I could get very used to it very quickly, but it would take me away from my guardian angel Rosalie.
I then got up and closed my eyes letting the smell capture me and again I took off in a streak that no human could see me running. I found the other human and drank him as well. I sat down on a rock and put my head in my hands. I started thinking, thinking very hard. What was it about that human that I had to have her? There was no walking away from her. Her scent was so compelling that if I didn't do anything today, I would come back and to what I just did. Worse yet I would be alone and I don't know how I would walk away from all the humans.
Rosalie came up to me quietly with a shovel in her hand. "Emmett," she asked hesitantly "I'm so sorry." I put my hands down and looked up at her. She had a little smudge of dirt on her nose, I wanted to laugh, but it was not the appropriate time or place to do so. "Your sorry?" I asked, "I'm the one who lost total self control!" "That may be right," she replied with a hitch in her voice. Is that how a vampire cries? I wondered. She sat next to me and continued "If I wasn't so selfish you wouldn't have to deal with this everyday" but I couldn't leave you there I was just as drawn to you and you to me. Remember when you said that?" I answered emphatically "Yes I remember, and those feelings, and they won't ever change".
"I already buried the first one, here you do this one." With that I handled my responsibility. When I was done I put the shovel back where it belonged, made sure everything was back in it's place, and I just wished to myself that there was no children coming home to no parents.
I turned to hug Rosalie and she backed away from me. I didn't ask her why, she always backs away when I try to hug her, give her a peck on the cheek or even hold her hand. I haven't been able to get her story out of her yet, let alone try to figure out how she could remember so much about her human life and I have so latent memories of mine. I stepped back and said to her, I am going to touch your nose with my shirt if that is ok with you. I know she was uncomfortable, but she let me do it. "There the dirt is all gone now", she smiled that smile that would make any man melt in her presence.
I had asked Edward to try and pick out of my head what my memories were, but he just said that his gift doesn't work that way. However if one pops into my head he could tell me what I was thinking about. That isn't enough really, that is why we are taking the trip to begin with.
I am writing this entry sitting on the same rock. Rosalie says it is time to go.
So now I have to go home and tell Carlise and Esme what happened. Carlise may not let me go. I will get my answer soon enough.
Emmett
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