Rosalie, I Met Royce King Today

February 14th, 1937

The last time I sat down to write, it ended up looking like a book, I swear. It was very long, but I am happy everything was out in the open. What happened to my angel was terrible. If Royce and his goons were still alive I would personally kill them myself. At least now I can help Rosalie when she is afraid or depressed. Carlisle told me she will never forget the pain of what happened to her, but now I know I can help her face her demons.

Rosalie is not happy that I am going on my “field trip” with Edward. She was sobbing the other night, I held her, rocked her, and whispered in her ear all night. Edward helped by playing the very delicate and beautiful songs on his piano. When she finally calmed down she went to find Esme. Edward confessed, “Rosalie is not afraid of you going as much as she is afraid of you not coming back”. She knows that I need closure and that is why I don’t want her to come. Since I can’t remember my human days I may find out things in my past that I may not be particularly proud of. I will tell Rosalie everything I find out, as we decided on New Year’s that we will never again hold any secrets from each other.

Edward and I are leaving in 5 days for Clarksville, Tennessee, my hometown. This is the trip I’ve been waiting for. As vampires, we don’t need a change of clothes, however in order to fit in with the humans we will both have baggage with changes of clothing. We have made reservations in Springfield, enough distance away to not risk running into someone who knew the human me. We plan on doing all the things we need to when it is dark, but we are hoping for some “bad” weather so we can go out during the day.

We’ve plotted our trip on the map, and I am marking the days down on the calendar. I have been working hard to write close to 90 letters for Rosalie. We are not sure how long we will be away so I have written many letters for Esme to give Rosalie one a day while I’m gone. Esme sighed when I asked her to do it for me. She said, with a motherly love, “I hope Rosalie realizes what she has, all the things that has happened to her she deserves happiness”.

Since we don’t sleep, time means nothing to us, it seems to move fast as each day begins. I have been shopping for the perfect valentine gift for my angel. I am totally road blocked on what I can give her. I have even asked Edward if she had thought of what she might like. He answered hesitantly “The only thing she really wants is for you not to go. She’s afraid you won’t come back. She is afraid you might find something there which you can’t leave behind. Family, Friends, a woman you loved more than life.” “She is my ever after Edward, I will not hurt her in any way. This is something I have to do. I don’t think I can go on without making sure the past is exactly that, the past” I answered whole heartedly. “I know, Emmett, but I’m not the one you need to convince,” Edward replied quietly.

Edward has been very depressed lately. He gets very moody, on a bad day for him you need to keep a far distance from him. He believes that there would be no love in his life. I think with his looks and talents he will find the right girl for him. When he least expects it, and is not looking for it, then it will happen.

I know that Carlise “saved” or “turned” Rosalie, he and Esme hoped that Rosalie and Edward would fall in love with each other. That was never going to happen and it is not because I think I am better for her than Edward, and because they didn’t like each other when Rosalie was still human. She thought he was a rude snob that thought he was better than her, and he thought she was so full of herself that there was no room for her to think of anyone else except herself.

The truth is Edward is not totally rude all the time and is definitely not a snob. He is uncomfortable being around humans. Although Rosalie is self absorbed she was never taught or encouraged to be anything else. So I am not jealous one bit about the two of them, Edward wouldn’t fall for Rosalie, he will never know that her heart is warm, and that she can be very loving.

“Edward, I wish I could give her exactly what she really wants,” Edward raised his eyebrows at me and said “Which is?” “Children, grandchildren, growing old together and not be frozen in time.” “Ahh I see” replied Edward. I looked at him and said “Like you never have read her mind and known all this” He laughed and repeated to me, what he always says “Reading people’s minds doesn’t mean I have the right to tell everyone their deepest thoughts”.

So that conversation took me nowhere fast. He didn’t even give me a hint as to what to get her.

So I decided to ask her for a date. A date for her, for us. A date for us is going to a very nice nightclub, pretend to eat and drink, and dance the night away. I figured if we did this the night before we leave, I could help her not to be so anxious about my trip. We went hunting and when we were alone, I asked “Rosalie, my angel” “Yes Emmett?” she said, trying to figure out what I wanted. “Rose, I was wondering if you would like to go out with me on Valentine’s Day? I would love to take you to Ciao America, for “dinner” and dancing.” Rosalie smiled her beautiful smile and said “Emmett, I’ve been waiting for you, I already made the reservations, even at this late date. I don’t know why it is, but when I mention the Cullen name I always get reservations anywhere I want to go.”

Thankfully it was a snow mix rainy kind of day. That is wonderful for us we can walk among the humans because we don’t stand out. We still look different but it’s better than looking like we took a bath in white glitter. I was doing some magical item call me from the windows “Pick me, pick me!!!” Well I bought her dresses, with matching shoes and hand bags. But then I saw it, I knew it would jump out at me, and scream at me. It was a platinum bracelet with a diamond heart almost as large a real one, okay so I am exaggerating a little, you got me , exaggerating a lot. But it was 5 carats and flawless, of perfect cut and color. I had to have it for my angel. When I walked into the jewelers they looked at me in awe, “have you never seen a vampire before?” I laughed at myself. Then I asked about the bracelet. The sales clerk froze and stared at me. When she stopped sizing me up and down she shakily call for her manager, “UM…Mister Lindsey?! May I please have a moment of your time?” “I’ll be there in a minute, Emily” He answered her.

“That is a beautiful name for a beautiful young lady as yourself, your husband must be thrilled to have you as a wife.” Uh Oh, I did it again, I wish I can learn to keep my mouth shut. The tears started to form around her eyes, “I am so sorry if I offended you in any way, it was not my intention to do so” I said carefully choosing my words in order to turn this around. “I am not offended Mr…. umm you didn’t give me your name Mr.” “Cullen” I said to her quietly. “Why are you so upset Emily? What did I do to upset you so?” I asked her, I figured I Have brought this on I owe her to listen to her. She took a quick look at Mr. Lindsey who seemed to be with the same customer, I believe he was hitting on her. “My husband died in the war Mr. Cullen,” if my heart was still beating it would have fallen to the floor right then and there. She continued while the tears started coming down her cheeks “He left me with no money a mountain of bills to pay, and taking care of three children. He was the love of my life, and now he’s gone! I actually work here on commission; this is technically my third job. I never see my children because I work so much to keep food on the table” The high emotion that she was showing shook me to my heels, Mr. Lindsey never looked over. “Did you ever want to do something for yourself and your children?” I handed her my handkerchief. She replied that she would love to be with her children more, and she always wanted to be a school teacher. Yes I could see her as a teacher; she would be a fine one.
Emily started clearing her throat trying to get Mr. Lindsey’s attention. “Why are we waiting for him, Emily?” I asked. Well Mr. Lindsey is the owner; we clerks are not allowed to show a customer anything over a thousand dollars. His reasoning is when he sizes up a person he will know whether to trust them or not. I don’t know what he is going to think,” I laughed to myself isn’t that the truth, she continued “Anyway the real reason is so he can take the sale away from us so he doesn’t have to pay commission.” It was then I saw red. Ruby red eyes! I started counting in my head so I didn’t kill him, no matter how much I wanted to. Good practice for our trip tomorrow. If I slip up just once, Carlisle and Edward will not let me go!

“Oh, I see now, so you’re telling me that he is just a man out for himself, and has no gentleman qualities,” I said, keeping my anger tone and actions in total control. This was very difficult; I don’t know how everyone does it. I continued to talk without Emily even noticing my hesitation within myself. “Show me the bracelet Emily, I will take care of his wrath, I have been waiting too long. Oh and Emily how much is your commission?” She answered me “10%.” Now I was seething, this time it was different I heard Carlisle’s voice in my head “Emmett control yourself”, it was so real that I turned around and there he was. Edward was there just in case. “Hello Edward, Carlisle,” I nodded that I was fine; Edward gave Carlisle what was going on. “Edward, Carlisle, I would like to introduce you to Emily…err.. I’m sorry I don’t remember your last name.” She smiled and said “I never gave you one, but now since I know who you are I must say it is Rogers, Emily Rogers.”

Edward was first to respond, “Well Emily, hello to you. Do you know what is holding my brother up? He has an important date tonight. After all it is Valentine’s Day, and his Valentine is dressing as we speak.” Carlisle started with his pleasantries while I was thinking toward Edward I needed his help tomorrow, can we take the last train out at 10pm? Edward nodded and smiled. I will ask him about that later. Carlisle finished up his conversation saying in a concerned tone, “So you’re telling me that he is the catch of the town, he uses women then snubs them like dirt?” “Yes” she said meekly, “Then he makes sure all the men know what he did because he calls them ‘easy sleazy’.” I was grateful that Rosalie wasn’t with us. “I really feel sorry for them, but I am trying to take care of the house, my children, and myself working 3 jobs, I cannot help the women also.”

Well she took the bracelet out of the window, and started to show it to me. She talked about carets, color, clarity, and cut. Also known as the 4 C’s, I asked how much is it? She said the price and I didn’t care. I then saw a diamond charm that would go with it. It was a key, and it was perfect. I really wasn’t paying attention to the 4C’s or about the price. I was looking forward to see what the owner was going to do. The show was about to begin.

First Mr. Lindsey yelled across the store “Emily! You know the rules, I decided to give you a raise, but instead I am going to fire your ass!” Carlisle put his hand on my shoulder to buffer my reaction.

Edward turned to look at him, Edward the depressed one of us who hasn’t found love as of yet, was the first to confront him “You did not say what I thought you said!” The anger in Edward’s statement even scared me. Carlisle whispered to me so quickly no one could hear him. “He was hunting when Rosalie was attacked. He is still angry with himself that he wasn’t there to hear her screams and really save her life.”

Mr. Lindsey looked at his conquest and they both started to laugh. “Oh excuse me, Madam, it seems that Mr. Lindsey and you think it is appropriate to speak like that to a fine young lady. You can talk trash to the young lady; he is trying very hard to land the most women in town. Have you told her yet that the nickname you will give her is ‘easy sleazy’?!” The young lady blushed, yet didn’t move because she still believed that the most eligible bachelor was really interested in her. “A real gentleman treats a woman like a delicate flower, not a weed growing to crowd and kill the flowers.”

By this time Mr. Lindsey came over to where we were looking at what I picked out for my angel. He again was very rude and hurtful. “I’ll take over from here; get the hell out of my way.” Again Edward corrected him and the man was smug. “This is my store and I can do or say exactly what I feel like. After all I am the only jeweler; therefore I have cornered the market in this stupid town!”

“Well Mr. Lindsey, Emily has helped me immensely, you should praise her not destroy her,” I said with my anger starting to come out. “You have no idea who you are addressing sir.”..” um, Mr. Lindsey these are the Cullen’s, Carlisle, Edward and Emmett” she told him quietly. “Emily, you are a very stupid girl, why didn’t you tell me who these people were?” as he puffed himself up in front of us. This time I growled at him, and he stepped back, a little afraid.

I looked at Emily and told her to put the key on the bracelet on the same link as the heart. He started to say “I’ll do it…” “I don’t think so Mr. Lindsey. My purchase is over $10,000 dollars, and I know my father is purchasing something as much if not better from Emily.” “She is fired, she gets nothing from these sales!” he replied while the snide woman on the other side started to laugh some more. Edward turned and started to look at her like food. She was taken aback, and then Edward said something I never thought would come out of his mouth. He looked at the woman trying to land herself a rich fish and said, “At least make him buy you a nice dinner, before he lifts your skirt, I’ll be back in town tomorrow and I will call you the name that Mr. Lindsey will tell everyone in town, ‘easy sleazy’, men don’t marry women like you, they just use you like a throw-away toy.”

“Carlisle”, I said, “are you done picking out what you wanted?” “Yes,” he answered, he wanted to get away from the situation as fast as possible.

“How much do I owe you?” Emily answered “Between you, Mr. Emmett and you, Mr. Carlisle, the total is $29,361 dollars.” Mr. Lindsey started laughing at her, “I can’t believe you are so stupid Emily, they are using you, and they have no intention of really spending that much money!” This time I growled and scared him so much, I could smell the fear emulating off of him that made him much more tempting. Instead I reached over and grabbed him by the suit lapel, and not so calmly said “You speak to her like she is a queen, don’t you ever call her another name!” “You really think I care about her, she is fired anyway” he snickered.

I turned and looked at Emily and calmly asked her if Mr. Sleaze Ball owed her more than today. “No, today was the first day of a new pay week; I picked up my last wages two days ago.” “How much did you sell today?” She seemed afraid, “Don’t worry Emily we will help you. “I sold $3,428 so that totals $32, 809,” “Very good now, 50% of that is $16,405. Okay Mr. Lindsey here is the remainder of the amount that is yours” Mr. Lindsey became so angry I thought he was going to have a heart attack. “She doesn’t get 50% commission!” He was screaming now.
I calmly said to him “Consider this her severance pay.” Then he threatened all of us. I wasn’t worried but I was worried about Emily. Edward heard my thoughts, and said I think I am going to spend most of the evening in town, and very casually turned to Emily, “I plan on being in town tomorrow, and please let me have the honor of walking you home tonight, and walk you to the bank in the morning. That is a lot of money to be carrying around, and since it is not open now, it will be more comfortable for you and least worrisome for me.” Emily smiled and said “That is very considerate of you. Thank you, thank all of you.” One could see the tears starting to form, we all hugged her before we left the store, and we could see the ugly, nasty stare from Mr. Lindsey. Something tells me that Carlisle or Edward will have a private conversation about Emily and her safety.

We split there, and now I was in a hurry to get home to be ready for our ‘date’ tonight. I didn’t know at that time that Rosalie asked Carlisle and Esme to join us for Valentine’s Day.

I better go she starting to get dressed, and I bought her the nicest dress and shoes to match it for tonight, then I have to fly home.

Now I have a vile taste in my mouth, I met a Royce King, and I didn’t like that feeling.


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Wiping The Slate Clean

December 31st, 1936

It’s really too bad that Royce King, John, and the other yahoos were dead, otherwise I would have made sure they were dead by midnight, not to see another year. For this I am proud of my Rosalie. Of course that is not what Rosalie needed right now. Right now she needed me and my understanding.

I slowly got up and walked to the window where Rosalie was standing and staring out into the New York lights. I was very careful to be sure that she felt safe.

I walked over to stand next to her, not behind her, as I didn’t want to startle her. I then turned toward her and I slowly took her hands, one at a time, as gentle as I could, and turned her towards me. I could see the emotions building up inside of her.

I slowly hugged her closely and whispered, “Please Rosalie, let me in just a little, I would like have my turn to talk”. Rosalie answered “Okay, Emmett, I see you have a lot to say, although I may not like it”, finishing with “I understand if you decide to leave me, I come with a lot of baggage.”

“Okay Rosalie,” I was starting to get a little angry now. “It is time for you to sit and not speak.” As she was beginning to sit down she started to say “but….” That is when I put my finger to her lips. I sat next to her, holding her hand.

“You have given me more than I could have even imagined,” I stared into her eyes so she could see the sincerity in what I was saying. “If you had just let me die when I was attacked, I never would have met you, my soul mate, and my angel”. Rosalie said “I never should have turned you into this life!” I replied quietly, “Then my life wouldn’t have been complete. Rosalie, we are meant to be together, if not in a human life, than in this life.” I went on without hesitation, “The moment I heard your voice, the moment I saw your face, the moment I woke up I was so drawn to you like Romeo and Juliet. One could not live without the other.” I watched her beautiful eyes gazing into mine; I thought she must be looking in my soul. “I know how much you hate this life, and I probably would if I didn’t have you to share it with”, I told her, eagerly pouring out love and sincerity. “So please never beg me to forgive you because you think you were selfish for doing this to me…to us, our destiny is to be together and I thank God for you every day!”

I let that sink in for a little bit, and then went on to the next that was hurting my love. “Rosalie, what happened to you was totally unforgiving,” she cringed and said “I know Emmett, and I understand why you want to leave!” “Leave?” I stood up and started to pace, “Leave?! For someone who is so sharp, Rosalie, you missed the target. You are the purest woman I have ever met. You think you have everyone fooled that you are a shallow, inconsiderate person, but not me, I see the real you.” I took a breath, “I see through the facade you put on so well. You know you are beyond beautiful, but it’s not who you are, and all of us know it. You are special not because of your looks, but of your listening and love for all of us.” I sighed, Vampires don’t sleep, but that doesn’t mean we don’t get exhausted. “What Royce King,” and just the mention of his name made her stiffen and pull back, but I went on, “What Royce King did to you was inexcusable, you did nothing wrong, you did not ask for it, you did not seduce him. But because of your beauty you gained attention from the wrong man. With that you trusted him so much, why would you ever think he could do something like that to you?”

“If you had not killed him I would be out there giving you a New Year’s present. What they did to you was not love, at least not the way that kind of love should be. It was power, they had power over you, and with every scream they satisfied their sadistic need even more.” Rosalie started sobbing without any tears, the only way a vampire can, and I finished with “I am from the South, and I do have a higher sense of morals and actions. The actions of those men would have been handled in the woods. My morals tell me you are refined and vitreous and I would be honored to be with you for eternity.” Rosalie jumped up and nearly crushed me in her embrace. Still crying and sobbing, but it was different. It seemed that she was relieved not to have to hold back from me anymore. The she kissed me, I mean really kissed me. I was so shocked to believe it was really happening. I knew it was a breakthrough for her, for me, and most of all for us.

“Rosalie”, I softly spoke in her ear, “I hope somewhere in your heart you want to be with me as much as I want to be with you”, she stepped back and looked me straight in the eye and said “Oh Emmett, I was so afraid to tell you. I thought you would think I believed in sex before marriage, that you would think I was a tramp.”

“No Rosalie, you were the victim of a sick minded individual, and I know you never suspected him to act like that. I think that we need to go slow. I am afraid I may do something to you that will push the button on the wrong memory. You need to talk to me and we will work it out together.” Rosalie remarked softly “I promise, Emmett, to tell you when I start to feel uncomfortable, maybe we could talk it out. If I do lose it again Emmett, what will you do then?” I answered quickly, as not to seem hesitant at all, “Then I will help you distinguish between the ugly past and the wonderful present.” She hugged me tightly; I have never felt so close in such a long time.

“One last thing Rosalie,” “What is that, Emmett?” “I promise to try not to do this, but if I call you Rose, please don’t hate me” She then smiled at me, not just her mouth, but her eyes and her total body smiled “Emmett you may call me Rose anytime you want to, but don’t tell anyone else. I don’t want it to come from anyone from you”, and with that the slate was wiped clean.

When the family came back all I saw was Edward nodding yes to Carlisle and Esme. I think they were just as relieved as I was at this point. Esme grabbed Rosalie, no words needed to be said. Edward broke the silence: “Everyone, let’s get ready to dance, in two hours it will be a new year!”

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Still Listening Part 2

Rosalie kept talking, getting more emotional as she spoke. “I was just a trophy that Royce would show off at all the social engagements. My parents were as happy as they were invited to all the society parties. My parents were climbing the social ladder through me.”

“I did tried to talk to my mother about my concerns, and all she would do is tell me how wrong I was and give me tips on how to talk to the servants, and emphatically speaking that I should get pregnant as soon as possible.” Rosalie stopped at this point, her expression was blank, almost as if she really wasn’t in the room, as though she was daydreaming of something that was out of her reach.

“Emmett,” Rosalie started again, however her tone changed rather quickly, “I really wanted that life, kids playing, Royce kissing me, and have a happily ever after, but you see Emmett it was never meant to be.” I heard the hitch in her voice, and knew what she was going to say next will be so hard for her. I still sat there and listened. I believed at that point we were getting close to what happened to her was coming.

“Emmett, I don’t deserve you.” Now I was tired of listening I had to say something, how could she say she didn’t deserve me! I am totally in love with her. Every part of her, she was my angel. She came over toward me as if she knew I was about to say something, and she put her finger on my lips as if to tell me PLEASE DON’T SAY ANYTHING.

“Emmett,” she finally whispered, “I am not pure, and you deserve pure!” I sat there, wanting to say something, I wondered what she meant. “I know sex before marriage is wrong, and is something I would not have done. However I had no choice.” She was becoming more upset as she talked
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I didn’t know if I could handle anymore, seeing the look of terror on her face. “Emmett, one night when I was coming home, Royce was with 5 of his friends. Royce called me over, and I was happy as he was going to introduce me to his friends, something he had never done before.”

Rosalie walked over to the window and looked out. “The night is not my favorite time of the day. If it was during the day when he called me over I would be alive today.” She went back to her story, still at the window. “Royce and his friends were drunk. Royce was talking to one of his friends John, whom I never me before. He was telling John that wasn’t I a ‘looker’ as he said. John then told Royce that he couldn’t tell since I was all covered up. Royce grabbed me from behind and started to pull my clothes off.”

“I shrugged him off telling him that I’d see him the next day sober. As I tried to walk away Royce wouldn’t let me leave, asking me where I was going.” I just was starting to feel sick knowing what must be coming next. I know that Vampires can’t get sick, but I still felt it in my stomach, and I didn’t like the feeling. I just started to pray that Rosalie wasn’t going to tell me something I didn’t want to hear.

Rosalie stopped here and turned to me to see what my reaction was up to this point. If I showed her disgust, it was not aimed at her, it was toward someone whom Rosalie trusted, and was taken advantage of.

“The more I screamed and fought them, the more they hurt me and beat me. I’m sorry about the hatpin that I got angry with you, however I had a hat on that evening and Royce tore it off, with the hat pin and my hair it was attached to.”

“I really don’t remember how many times each one of them had their way with me, all I really remember is the pain and the blood, and asking God to let me die quickly so I didn’t have to lie in the street in all that blood.” I was devastated my angel was treated so poorly in her life, I totally understand her keeping a safe distance from me. “God didn’t want me, but Carlise came to find where the intense smell of blood was coming from. When he found me he picked me up and then I just passed out from the loss of blood.”

“Well the rest you know. I woke up burring I was so sure I was in hell. When I realized what was happening to me, I screamed to please kill me.” For the first time she looked at me, I mean really looked at me, she saw the anger boiling. “Don’t worry about them, I killed them all. I kept Royce for last, so he knew that something was after them. I didn’t care that John went back south, and where the others went to hide I found all of them. I not only killed each of them, but I killed their guards too. Since Royce was last, I tortured him for days before I killed him, and for increase effect I wore a wedding gown when I went for him. I didn’t taste any of their blood; I didn’t want their blood flowing inside me.”1*

“You see Emmett why I am begging you for making you what you are. I didn’t have a choice for this life, and I never gave you a choice either. I was so selfish. From the time I heard you screaming, and smelled your blood, I felt so attached to you, that I couldn’t lose you. I begged Carlise to change you, to make you a monster. When you call me angel, I cringe. First I make you a monster, and secondly I cannot offer you a pure woman, only a soiled one.”

For the first time after what I thought was minutes, but it actually was hours the room fell closer to silent. All I could hear was Rosalie ‘crying’
I knew I could get up now; I could even talk, which I knew that was what Rosalie was waiting for.


1 Stephanie Meyers Twilight saga, Eclipse

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