January, 1937, re: December 31st, 1936
I know I should have written long before today but with what Rosalie told me, I had to control myself. I had to place my anger in a vault, lock it up, and throw away the key. I know, I know I should have placed my anger into you dear journal, however I didn’t want Rosalie to have read you before she trusted me thoroughly. I would not be disrespectful toward her. Like I would ever think of disrespecting her, let alone hurt her with words or physical force..
Going back to New Year’s Eve, Esme, Carlisle and Edward went to find a New Year’s ball where we could easily fit in and dance the night away. Rosalie paced, and told me to listen, and not speak while she talked. According to what she said, I may or may not get the whole story tonight.
Rosalie started, with dry tears and low sobs: “Emmett, first I have to beg your forgiveness,” at that I opened my mouth to start telling her that she had done nothing to beg my forgiveness for. I then shut it as I remembered not to speak.
Rosalie went on not missing a beat. “I need your forgiveness as I have doomed you to a life that you had no choice. I know what being frozen like this means, and how I wished I died the night I was turned into a part of this life. I was so selfish for my own needs that I begged Carlisle to change you knowing what I was begging for, but I wanted you so badly that I was willing to do anything to have you.”
“Did you know that I was supposed to be Edward’s mate? To help him out of the depression he was in?” she continued, “But it wasn’t meant to be. I could have told Dr. Cullen the first day we met when I was still human. I thought he was rude and he didn’t seem to care either way. I told my mother that he was not the one for me. Mother thought that he would be good for me, as his father was a doctor, and Edward seemed to be very educated. He seemed to have a bright and successful future ahead of him. Mother and Father were social climbers and the suitors had to match their criteria for courting me. Money, money, and the more money you had the more you would meet the criteria that would let you in the door.”
“Of course I believed what my parents told me every day. I was the prettiest girl in town, which is where my shallowness comes from. So because of my looks and parents, I “caught” the eye of Royce King. It was a whirlwind romance, between the flowers and the parties I felt like a princess made by the son of a banker.”
“We were engaged, the date was set. I had the most beautiful and of course “expensive” wedding dress that money could buy. I was in heaven, and I was starry eyed. I didn’t notice Royce eyeing other women. I was so naive. I didn’t notice that he rarely looked in my direction unless he was introducing me to business executives.”
“You see Emmett, the only reason I remember so much of my past life as a human is because I swore I would never get hurt again.”
Emmett
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Listen Carefully, And Don't Speak
We waited so long I didn't even know if it was day or night. Finally the door to our suite opened and in walked Rosalie with Esme right behind her. I saw Edward nod and I knew I was watching a secret conversation between him and I think Esme.
Rosalie had yet to say something and Esme said "Sorry to keep you waiting for us, we wanted to see the sun rise so we went to Cadillac Mountain in the Maine where at this time of year is the first location to be struck by the sun's rays in the morning." Esme smiled as only Esme could, the motherly smile. "Oh Carlise", she said "We must go together sometime, it was so beautiful!" "Then we hunted on the way back."
I stood up and opened my mouth to say..."Sit down brother," Edward said. I sat down and kept my mouth shut, as I could figure out that was what I have to do.
Rosalie went into her room and didn't come out. We were afraid to talk as we all knew that Rosalie would hear us. Esme did state that Rosalie was calmer now and she just needed her space.
It was the morning of New Years Eve, and I was hoping that we were going to have a wonderful New Year, as we all were going dancing at some of the balls tonight. Ha! Who would of thought that I could dance!
The next thing I knew Rosalie came out of her room and looked at everyone and said, "I'm sorry everyone, I didn't mean to cause this emotional drama. Especially now during the holidays. Please forgive me everyone."
I started to stand up to tell her everything was OK, when I felt Edward's hand stop me, I sat down again.
Carlise spoke up first "Rosalie, my daughter, you have plenty of reasons for being so upset. You didn't ruin anything for me, I just wish I could make it all go away." He said this so heartfelt, and looked like he was
suffering as much as Rosalie. Edward's face looked as pained as Carlise's spoke these words. I knew he was probably reading my angel's mind.
Edward spoke next "Rosalie, if I had heard your screams that night I would have ran to help you. I was out hunting and stayed out for a few days. You know that right?" "Yes", Rosalie answered so much like a whisper that even with vampire hearing, you could barely make it out. Edward stood up, and hugged her saying "Rosalie, sometimes we act like we care less about each other, but you are my sister, and I love you. I never would let anyone hurt you again, I promise." If Rosalie could speak it would be through tears and sobs In the meantime I growled and started to stand. Someone hurt my Rosalie? Just point them out. This time it was Carlise who grabbed me by my shoulder, and sat me back down. I was starting to feel like a yo-yo, plunging up and down.
Edward took the lead and said "Carlise, maybe you, Esme, and myself should go and see where the best balls are tonight. We don't want to have anywhere to bring it in." I was the last person sitting on the davenport, I figured out that If Rosalie wanted to have me stand and speak I would be doing so right now when she first came back to the hotel.
Carlise, Edward and Esme left at that time leaving just Rosalie and myself in the room. Again I started to rise, as a gentleman does when he is alone with a lady, Rosalie looked at me as if I committing a crime. So I sat back down as she started pacing. There was so much tension in the room I could feel start to smother me.
"Ro" I started to say, when she looked at me and said. "I think it is about time I told you what happened to me the night of who I was and what horrible things that happened to me right before I changed." I was relieved I would finally know what is going on in her head, aside from Edward who knew everything.
Rosalie started very hesitantly "Emmett, I think I will tell you everything I can say until it starts to hurt to much."
Again I started to say something and her eyes shut me right down. I haven't said two words since she came back, not without trying.
She looked at me and whispered again with a little sob in her voice "Emmett, while I tell you my story, I really want you to just to listen carefully and don't say a word."
I was totally baffled, but if my angel wanted me to listen carefully and don't speak that is what I will do, I also will remain seated as that is what message Edward was trying to tell to do.
"Listen carefully Emmett, and don't speak until I am done" she said in a whisper...
Emmett
Rosalie had yet to say something and Esme said "Sorry to keep you waiting for us, we wanted to see the sun rise so we went to Cadillac Mountain in the Maine where at this time of year is the first location to be struck by the sun's rays in the morning." Esme smiled as only Esme could, the motherly smile. "Oh Carlise", she said "We must go together sometime, it was so beautiful!" "Then we hunted on the way back."
I stood up and opened my mouth to say..."Sit down brother," Edward said. I sat down and kept my mouth shut, as I could figure out that was what I have to do.
Rosalie went into her room and didn't come out. We were afraid to talk as we all knew that Rosalie would hear us. Esme did state that Rosalie was calmer now and she just needed her space.
It was the morning of New Years Eve, and I was hoping that we were going to have a wonderful New Year, as we all were going dancing at some of the balls tonight. Ha! Who would of thought that I could dance!
The next thing I knew Rosalie came out of her room and looked at everyone and said, "I'm sorry everyone, I didn't mean to cause this emotional drama. Especially now during the holidays. Please forgive me everyone."
I started to stand up to tell her everything was OK, when I felt Edward's hand stop me, I sat down again.
Carlise spoke up first "Rosalie, my daughter, you have plenty of reasons for being so upset. You didn't ruin anything for me, I just wish I could make it all go away." He said this so heartfelt, and looked like he was
suffering as much as Rosalie. Edward's face looked as pained as Carlise's spoke these words. I knew he was probably reading my angel's mind.
Edward spoke next "Rosalie, if I had heard your screams that night I would have ran to help you. I was out hunting and stayed out for a few days. You know that right?" "Yes", Rosalie answered so much like a whisper that even with vampire hearing, you could barely make it out. Edward stood up, and hugged her saying "Rosalie, sometimes we act like we care less about each other, but you are my sister, and I love you. I never would let anyone hurt you again, I promise." If Rosalie could speak it would be through tears and sobs In the meantime I growled and started to stand. Someone hurt my Rosalie? Just point them out. This time it was Carlise who grabbed me by my shoulder, and sat me back down. I was starting to feel like a yo-yo, plunging up and down.
Edward took the lead and said "Carlise, maybe you, Esme, and myself should go and see where the best balls are tonight. We don't want to have anywhere to bring it in." I was the last person sitting on the davenport, I figured out that If Rosalie wanted to have me stand and speak I would be doing so right now when she first came back to the hotel.
Carlise, Edward and Esme left at that time leaving just Rosalie and myself in the room. Again I started to rise, as a gentleman does when he is alone with a lady, Rosalie looked at me as if I committing a crime. So I sat back down as she started pacing. There was so much tension in the room I could feel start to smother me.
"Ro" I started to say, when she looked at me and said. "I think it is about time I told you what happened to me the night of who I was and what horrible things that happened to me right before I changed." I was relieved I would finally know what is going on in her head, aside from Edward who knew everything.
Rosalie started very hesitantly "Emmett, I think I will tell you everything I can say until it starts to hurt to much."
Again I started to say something and her eyes shut me right down. I haven't said two words since she came back, not without trying.
She looked at me and whispered again with a little sob in her voice "Emmett, while I tell you my story, I really want you to just to listen carefully and don't say a word."
I was totally baffled, but if my angel wanted me to listen carefully and don't speak that is what I will do, I also will remain seated as that is what message Edward was trying to tell to do.
"Listen carefully Emmett, and don't speak until I am done" she said in a whisper...
Emmett
Friday, August 6, 2010
Me and My Big Mouth
December 1936.
Before I start, let me say I am a large man. I don't really remember much of my human life, but even though I don 't remember most of it, I do know that I could have been the town bully. However I would take on the bullies to help the ones who couldn't stand up for themselves. I also knew that a lady is always treated like a lady no matter how what they say or do.
So as I was saying, Rosalie and I were going for an evening stroll in New York. We were looking at all the pretty lights and stopped and looked at all the window displays. I was holding her hand, which surprised me, because usually if she wants to hold hands or hug, it always is initiated by her, she never would let me take her hand or get so close. I really believe that she was so hurt in her human life that she doesn't really trust anyone except for Esme.
We were strolling down the street, laughing and joking, and we stopped in front of the store where the mannequins were all dressed in mink and chinchilla fur coats with the matching buff, and on top were
the fur hats to match. Now here is where the messy part starts, I am so glad to be able to write this down because I don't think I can handle this alone with my temper, anyway here is where the messy part starts mistake Number 1, I look at my own personal angel and said "Oh Rosalie, I should have asked Edward to get, or have made just for you, a hatpin to match your rubies. You know, I have never seen you in a hat" - and that was it! Rosalie yanked her hand from me and screamed at me "I don't wear hats and I don't want a hatpin!" and then she ran I mean ran. Fortunately we were alone and Central Park was across the street! I could at least see what others could not, I saw where she was running to and took off after her. When I finally caught up to her she was kneeling in the snow, sobbing the way only vampires do. I know now I should have gone to get Esme, but I really think that my brain has never caught up to my brawn. Instead I made mistake Number 2, I walked up behind her and before I could say her name, I placed my hands on her shoulders saying "Ros..A LEE" as she flipped me over her head and tossed me into the lamppost, It didn't break but it was very dented.
I moved away from the lamppost shaking the cobwebs out of my mind when she attacked me for the second
time. This time however I was ready for her. As she was coming at me, the look on her face was murderous.
I feared for her, not that she could hurt me, but for what she wanted to do.
I yelled "Rosalie! Stop!" as she threw me through the snow, thankfully a tree was there to stop me. Mind you, I could have stopped her anytime, but I don't believe in hitting a woman at anytime, especially my angel, although at this particular moment she looked more like, um looked like, like, like a vampire. We went at it more and more with her just yelling "Royce King, you will not hurt me again!" over and over again. The only thing I could say at that point was "Rosalie, sweetheart, it's me Emmett!! I am not Royce King, no matter who or what he may be."
OK now here comes mistake Number 3. I couldn't stand seeing her in so much pain like this, I grabbed her waist from behind pinning her arms down at spoke to hear as calmly and as comfortably as I could, and she went wild. I had to let go, or she would have hurt herself, and then she yelled "Keep your filthy hands off me!" I let go of her immediately and stepped back, she then slapped me hard across my face. I was in so much shock and was so hurt, I wanted to just run. Instead she started running again. I was afraid just to let her go, but in this state she would kill any human within any close vicinity of her. I ran after her a second time, and this time she stopped and turned on me in a crouching position with a deep growl.
At this point I knew we were in big trouble. I backed up from her with my hands up, and spoke clearly and softly said. wait for it (mistake Number 4), "Rose..." "Don't you ever call me Rose, who do you think you are I am NOT ROSE, I am Rosalie!!! " At this point I knew I was defeated and nothing I could do or say would calm her.
"Rosalie, if you would just wait here, I can help you." I finally got her to agree to wait there, I ran as only a vampire can to the hotel, walked just a little too fast in the lobby, and took the stairs instead of the lift because I could run faster. When I ran onto the floor, the room door opened as Edward read my screaming thoughts and was waiting for me, as were Carlise and Esme. I spoke so fast than any human could never hear. I told them what had happened and I don't understand what was going on.
Carlise and Esme started to go, when Edward spoke up "Carlise, in light of what has happened, I think Esme should go there alone." "Why would you say that Edward?" Carlise asked? "Well in the state Rosalie is in, she may even look at you as threat to her instead of a father."
With that Esme left for Central Park. Carlise, Edward and I just sat and waited.
I was going to ask them again what was going on. I didn't because every time I did, Edward would say that Rosalie will tell me some of it especially, after what happened tonight. Well I'm hope it is soon, so I can help her if I can. All I can see right now was her face, her sobbing, and her slapping me. Edward then said "It was that bad?" "I think worse," Edward's face was in pain for Rosalie. Carlise said "Is anyone going to clue me in?" Edward told him what I was remembering and he patted me on the back saying, "You have actually may have started in the right direction for her to accept what happened to her and to move on."
No one would budge to tell me what was going on with her. Who was this Royce guy? Why is she so angry with him? Why was she so angry at men in particular? What did I do to make this happen? What is my role in this scenario? Many questions, and none were going to be answered come tonight.
So we waited, and waited.
We waited a long time.
Before I start, let me say I am a large man. I don't really remember much of my human life, but even though I don 't remember most of it, I do know that I could have been the town bully. However I would take on the bullies to help the ones who couldn't stand up for themselves. I also knew that a lady is always treated like a lady no matter how what they say or do.
So as I was saying, Rosalie and I were going for an evening stroll in New York. We were looking at all the pretty lights and stopped and looked at all the window displays. I was holding her hand, which surprised me, because usually if she wants to hold hands or hug, it always is initiated by her, she never would let me take her hand or get so close. I really believe that she was so hurt in her human life that she doesn't really trust anyone except for Esme.
We were strolling down the street, laughing and joking, and we stopped in front of the store where the mannequins were all dressed in mink and chinchilla fur coats with the matching buff, and on top were
the fur hats to match. Now here is where the messy part starts, I am so glad to be able to write this down because I don't think I can handle this alone with my temper, anyway here is where the messy part starts mistake Number 1, I look at my own personal angel and said "Oh Rosalie, I should have asked Edward to get, or have made just for you, a hatpin to match your rubies. You know, I have never seen you in a hat" - and that was it! Rosalie yanked her hand from me and screamed at me "I don't wear hats and I don't want a hatpin!" and then she ran I mean ran. Fortunately we were alone and Central Park was across the street! I could at least see what others could not, I saw where she was running to and took off after her. When I finally caught up to her she was kneeling in the snow, sobbing the way only vampires do. I know now I should have gone to get Esme, but I really think that my brain has never caught up to my brawn. Instead I made mistake Number 2, I walked up behind her and before I could say her name, I placed my hands on her shoulders saying "Ros..A LEE" as she flipped me over her head and tossed me into the lamppost, It didn't break but it was very dented.
I moved away from the lamppost shaking the cobwebs out of my mind when she attacked me for the second
time. This time however I was ready for her. As she was coming at me, the look on her face was murderous.
I feared for her, not that she could hurt me, but for what she wanted to do.
I yelled "Rosalie! Stop!" as she threw me through the snow, thankfully a tree was there to stop me. Mind you, I could have stopped her anytime, but I don't believe in hitting a woman at anytime, especially my angel, although at this particular moment she looked more like, um looked like, like, like a vampire. We went at it more and more with her just yelling "Royce King, you will not hurt me again!" over and over again. The only thing I could say at that point was "Rosalie, sweetheart, it's me Emmett!! I am not Royce King, no matter who or what he may be."
OK now here comes mistake Number 3. I couldn't stand seeing her in so much pain like this, I grabbed her waist from behind pinning her arms down at spoke to hear as calmly and as comfortably as I could, and she went wild. I had to let go, or she would have hurt herself, and then she yelled "Keep your filthy hands off me!" I let go of her immediately and stepped back, she then slapped me hard across my face. I was in so much shock and was so hurt, I wanted to just run. Instead she started running again. I was afraid just to let her go, but in this state she would kill any human within any close vicinity of her. I ran after her a second time, and this time she stopped and turned on me in a crouching position with a deep growl.
At this point I knew we were in big trouble. I backed up from her with my hands up, and spoke clearly and softly said. wait for it (mistake Number 4), "Rose..." "Don't you ever call me Rose, who do you think you are I am NOT ROSE, I am Rosalie!!! " At this point I knew I was defeated and nothing I could do or say would calm her.
"Rosalie, if you would just wait here, I can help you." I finally got her to agree to wait there, I ran as only a vampire can to the hotel, walked just a little too fast in the lobby, and took the stairs instead of the lift because I could run faster. When I ran onto the floor, the room door opened as Edward read my screaming thoughts and was waiting for me, as were Carlise and Esme. I spoke so fast than any human could never hear. I told them what had happened and I don't understand what was going on.
Carlise and Esme started to go, when Edward spoke up "Carlise, in light of what has happened, I think Esme should go there alone." "Why would you say that Edward?" Carlise asked? "Well in the state Rosalie is in, she may even look at you as threat to her instead of a father."
With that Esme left for Central Park. Carlise, Edward and I just sat and waited.
I was going to ask them again what was going on. I didn't because every time I did, Edward would say that Rosalie will tell me some of it especially, after what happened tonight. Well I'm hope it is soon, so I can help her if I can. All I can see right now was her face, her sobbing, and her slapping me. Edward then said "It was that bad?" "I think worse," Edward's face was in pain for Rosalie. Carlise said "Is anyone going to clue me in?" Edward told him what I was remembering and he patted me on the back saying, "You have actually may have started in the right direction for her to accept what happened to her and to move on."
No one would budge to tell me what was going on with her. Who was this Royce guy? Why is she so angry with him? Why was she so angry at men in particular? What did I do to make this happen? What is my role in this scenario? Many questions, and none were going to be answered come tonight.
So we waited, and waited.
We waited a long time.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
It's The Holidays!!
December, 1936
It's been quite awhile since I've taken the time to write this down.
Since my taste of human blood, it has made it very difficult for me to be around humans, I cannot go to any of the stores in the area.
I relied on Carlise and Esme to buy for everyone except for Rosalie, as I wanted Edwards eye for beautiful things. I told them what I wanted for whom they were buying for, and have each buy what I wanted for each other. Rosalie my love would like anything with jewels in it, so I bought her a 5 carat oval Burmese ruby surrounded by diamonds pendant which will highlight her beautiful neck, with earrings and a ring to match.
She was so surprised that she shrieked and ran across the room to hug me as hard as she could. She almost knocked me over all while screaming "It's so beautiful Emmett, I just love it thank you Emmett, I just love you for it." I was so taken aback and said "Rosalie, What I give you is from my heart. Since my heart doesn't no longer beats, I wanted you to wear the red symbol that it would be." Thankfully she didn't knock me down, I never would have been able to live that down with Edward. Speaking of Edward I owe him big time as he bought Rosalie exactly what I wanted to give her. Esme and Carlise bought her a matching hair comb, that will be so beautiful in her blond hair.
Edward and Rosalie don't get along to well. Edward is a loner, and sometimes he will make a comment towards her that really presses her buttons, as she does him. I really think that they would die for each other if either of them were in any kind of trouble. True sibling rivalry I guess. However saying that he bought her a sterling silver vanity set. The oval mirrored base, the brush, comb, and the small vanity hand held mirror. All of them with inlay mother of pearl and small rubies and diamonds.
Rosalie gave me cuff links with a single diamond set into the gold so it wouldn't catch on my suit jacket and a matching tie clasp.
After we opened all of our gifts we all went hunting together, then ran to New York City to see all the lights and the windows decorated with moving characters all having to do with Santa Claus.
We then checked into the poshest hotel there was, as I thought to myself where did we get all of our money. Every time I ask I'm told not to worry about it. It would seem that the depression hurt almost everyone, yet we were fine.
Before I go off into another tangent I was telling you we checked in to wait until The New Year is celebrated. We wanted to go ice skating at Rockefeller Center. We were going to take in a Broadway show, their were many George M. Cohen shows playing.
After checking in I see we were given a huge suite with separate bedrooms for Carlise and Esme, Edward, Rosalie, and myself. I wish Rosalie felt about me as I do for her, then again I do have an eternity to wait for her.
After unloading our suitcases I asked Rosalie "Would you like to take a stroll with me? It is such a beautiful night". She smiled at me the way she melts my heart and answered "Of course I would Emmett".
She put on her Christmas gifts and away we went into the beautiful night...
There is much more to say, but I am emotionally tired. I think I made a mess of things with Rosalie, and the only one that can clean the mess up is me.
Emmett
It's been quite awhile since I've taken the time to write this down.
Since my taste of human blood, it has made it very difficult for me to be around humans, I cannot go to any of the stores in the area.
I relied on Carlise and Esme to buy for everyone except for Rosalie, as I wanted Edwards eye for beautiful things. I told them what I wanted for whom they were buying for, and have each buy what I wanted for each other. Rosalie my love would like anything with jewels in it, so I bought her a 5 carat oval Burmese ruby surrounded by diamonds pendant which will highlight her beautiful neck, with earrings and a ring to match.
She was so surprised that she shrieked and ran across the room to hug me as hard as she could. She almost knocked me over all while screaming "It's so beautiful Emmett, I just love it thank you Emmett, I just love you for it." I was so taken aback and said "Rosalie, What I give you is from my heart. Since my heart doesn't no longer beats, I wanted you to wear the red symbol that it would be." Thankfully she didn't knock me down, I never would have been able to live that down with Edward. Speaking of Edward I owe him big time as he bought Rosalie exactly what I wanted to give her. Esme and Carlise bought her a matching hair comb, that will be so beautiful in her blond hair.
Edward and Rosalie don't get along to well. Edward is a loner, and sometimes he will make a comment towards her that really presses her buttons, as she does him. I really think that they would die for each other if either of them were in any kind of trouble. True sibling rivalry I guess. However saying that he bought her a sterling silver vanity set. The oval mirrored base, the brush, comb, and the small vanity hand held mirror. All of them with inlay mother of pearl and small rubies and diamonds.
Rosalie gave me cuff links with a single diamond set into the gold so it wouldn't catch on my suit jacket and a matching tie clasp.
After we opened all of our gifts we all went hunting together, then ran to New York City to see all the lights and the windows decorated with moving characters all having to do with Santa Claus.
We then checked into the poshest hotel there was, as I thought to myself where did we get all of our money. Every time I ask I'm told not to worry about it. It would seem that the depression hurt almost everyone, yet we were fine.
Before I go off into another tangent I was telling you we checked in to wait until The New Year is celebrated. We wanted to go ice skating at Rockefeller Center. We were going to take in a Broadway show, their were many George M. Cohen shows playing.
After checking in I see we were given a huge suite with separate bedrooms for Carlise and Esme, Edward, Rosalie, and myself. I wish Rosalie felt about me as I do for her, then again I do have an eternity to wait for her.
After unloading our suitcases I asked Rosalie "Would you like to take a stroll with me? It is such a beautiful night". She smiled at me the way she melts my heart and answered "Of course I would Emmett".
She put on her Christmas gifts and away we went into the beautiful night...
There is much more to say, but I am emotionally tired. I think I made a mess of things with Rosalie, and the only one that can clean the mess up is me.
Emmett
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